Monster Called Jealousy

I try so very hard to contain her
But every now and again she rears her ugly green head desperate to take away the the control that I have over her.
What's hers is hers and She will Not allow me to be lenient with my kindness
She calls me weak
Which in return makes me question my own actions
I want to unleash her, but I know when I allow her wrath to dominate me in mind, body, and ,spirit,
I will become the crazy one,
Knowing that she'll be the blame.
So I ask..Why do you hate her?
"I just fucking do!!!!!!"
(This is what she does
Curse at me while spewing hatred and negativity)
She has done nothing to you, yet you want me to condemn her.?"
"What did she do?"
"She think she's fucking better than me!!!!!She think she's fucking better than you!!!!!
She's ugly!! And I hate her!!!!"
"But she isn't..In fact I was told that she is even more beautiful than I..Which automatically makes her more beautiful than you."
'You are threatened by her. She makes you insecure and it eats you up inside. That's why you never have logical answers to the questions I ask.
You never have reasonable replies."
"But WHY?!?!?!"
" I have everything I have wished for, Which automatically means the same for you,"
"Why do you want to come out and cause problems for me. I'm not the one who has these insecurities..Its YOU.!!!!!!"
"But you are! You see we are one and the same. And because you don't want to face the fucking facts. I am where you lay all of the blame.!!!!!!"
"Your heart starts to beat faster Every time you hear her name."
" It makes you sick doesn't it?, That voice in the back your Head telling you that she will Always be there..in HIS heart."
I gasp.
"Yeah," She smirks
"That's the reason, you're mad. You can't express it because you're scared he's gonna give you that bullshit ass answer he already had."
"YOU have no logical reason for feeling this way towards her, but you feel she has a hold on what's yours and you want to snatch that shit back!!!
"You wouldn't be able to compete with her!!!" She laughs!
I wouldn't be able to compete with her!!"
"And I'm Jealous...
"YOU'RE" Fucking Jealous!!!!!!!!."